I have been experiencing that old familiar sensation again. The one that makes me feel like I am a child trying to persuade all the adults that I am one of them.
I feel like a kid masquerading as an adult; pretending that I actually know what I am doing and where I am going in the world.
I wonder if anyone is actually convinced.
Nope, not me.
ReplyDelete"smile"
You are neither a child nor an adult. You are just a lost fairy but you also have many faces. Deep inside you, you still know how to put on the appropriate masks and you could act like an adult but your energy is, unfortunately, depleted.
ReplyDeleteYou are not whole. You've never been whole but today more than ever you realized the heavy price you have to pay for this void. With the right tools you certainly could find peace inside you and in the outer world most of us have to interact with every day.
Have a good night Charli. You can cry if you want to, but I don't think that's necessary.
Well Gabriel, I am not sure about the "never been whole" part but I do agree that for the past months I have been going through an identity crisis, of sorts. I think that this is part of being human though....evolution of self should never stop. Growth (and change) are important for everyone.
ReplyDeleteBut yes, finding peace would be good....and I am close. *smile*