Something Elusive

Something is out there.
It tugs at me relentlessly until the taste develops in my mouth;
while I sit in the audience
gazing up into its ethereal allure
just beyond my grasp
I am part of it
and yet,
not....
when I am out in the world, I feel it
so close, so close
again the taste
but something else as well;
it is tangible,
borderline real
not my old reality, but my newly discovered path
the direction in which my feet want to walk
and yet
here I sit
in the audience
staring up at a life
I do not own.


These words were inspired by Oscar Wilde's poignant quote and the desire to live "my" authentic life:
One's real life is so often the life that one does not lead.