Sunday, February 13, 2011
If you only knew...my feelings of inner peace and contentment, when you exhibit your tender and loving Daddy side, allowing me to curl up on your lap and disappear into you.
If you only knew....that, when you scold me because I have spoken disrespectfully to you, it confirms to me that you will not let me "run" you. It has taken me a long time to find a man that I could not manipulate; a man I could respect.
If you only knew....how completely erotic it is to me that you enjoy making me cry; that the sound of my screams and tears in response to your belt contacting my flesh, makes you hard.
If you only knew....that I feel an equilibrium when with you; a functional homeostasis that allows me to breathe more deeply than I have in a very long time.
If you only knew.....
Friday, February 11, 2011
So tortuous the longing still
the nights of twisted thoughts to fill
the thirst, impossible to sate
I lie again in pain.....in wait.
I need Him to guide me and take care of me...
to love me
to spank me when I am flying out of control
to sit down and talk to me when I need counsel
to slap me when I forget who I am talking to
to hug me when I need comfort
to use me as He sees fit.
I need these boundaries in order to feel secure in my skin
while safely snuggled in His embrace.
I need to make Him smile...
to love Him
to be submissive to Him
to help and support Him
to try and give Him what He wants
and let Him take what He needs.