I went to my first kinky-people-gathering/play party the other night.....very nervous and not knowing what to expect, either in what I was going to "see", or in what my reaction to what I "saw" would be. It was a private play party and the people in attendance were all friends and very nice and personable individuals. What I very much enjoyed was simply being in a room full of unconventional people and being able to talk about whatever....the whatever including all manner of perversions.......wow! How very liberating that was!
What I was not comfortable with, was the play part. Watching people undress and engage in stuff, took me way out of my comfort zone. I felt as though I was intruding into their private space and that I should not have been there. Now I know that is not how "they" felt, but still.....I felt how I felt.
See, to me, sexual interactions between two people "are", or should be, meaningful and intense.....private and intimate. (Does that make me prudish?) To expose yourselves to the outside world somehow lessens the specialness of the intimacy; it does indeed become "play" for play sake. Now, obviously, for many people, that is part of the appeal, whether they be exhibitionistic, or perhaps just view the experience as a chance to share and feed off the sexual energy of other kinky people engaging in scenes around them.
Whatever the case may be, I am not sure that, other than curiosity, I will ever be able to derive much from the public play experience. Not being one to give up easily, however, I will definitely "try" this out again......*smile* As I said earlier, just being in an environment with alt-minded people, is/was, in itself, a very refreshing endeavor.