Tuesday, February 2, 2010

Pick a Cherry Dammit!

My brain hurts terribly. I have been agonizing over the decision of whether or not to go back to school in September. Never have I known what I want to be when I grow up, and still this is the case; yet I feel I need a new direction, a new beginning......the problem lies within the fact that I have no idea what direction I want to take. Because of my advanced age and limited financial resources it seems imperative that I make the "right" decision, and this is weighing heavily on me. It is weighing so heavily that I am in danger of sitting in one place and not moving in ANY direction. I have always had a problem with "deciding", always afraid of not thinking the problem through as thoroughly as I could have or, heaven forbid, making the "wrong" decision. And optimists will say, "there is no such thing as a wrong decision, as you learn by everything you do and what can be wrong with learning"? I might have agreed with that when I was 20 but it seems a bit different now, from where I stand.

Tinker, tailor, soldier, sailor, rich man, poor man, beggar man, thief,
Or what about a cowboy, policeman, jailer, engine driver, or a pirate chief?
Or what about a ploughman or a keeper at the zoo,
Or what about a circus man who lets the people through?
Or the man who takes the pennies on the roundabouts and swings,
Or the man who plays the organ or the other man who sings?
Or What about the rabbit man with rabbits in his pockets
And what about a rocket man who's always making rockets?
Oh it's such a lot of things there are and such a lot to be
That there's always lots of cherries on my little cherry tree.

I wish the damn cherries would all fall off, leaving only one.

That would make it much easier.


  1. Good luck with this, too many choices can certainly be a curse.

  2. Thanks David.

    Hi L4h! Yes, thank you, I actually have just completed a couple of those different tests but because my results mostly came up "artistic" my resulting choices of occupations were very limited....it has helped me narrow it down though, I guess....though you're right, "my" list of kinky occupations was rather well...zero as well....*sigh*. Nursing is one of the things that I looked at but the 4 years thing kind of puts me off as it's been a VERY long time since I was in school and even the thought of 2 years freaks me out, to be honest.

  3. I find that what works for me is takign "fear" out of the picture.

    Just sit back and relax a moment.

    Now if time and money were no object ... what would you want to do? where do youwant to be doing it?

    Sometimes things are not as obvious. I am a very creative person - so a job where I was doing the same thing day in and day out was not an option.

    Well I ended up in Emergency management. What do i do? I spend my time creating - as in making up - scenarios of a type of crisis, to help a company exercise their Business Continuity Plans.

    Basically I play make belief all day.

    So ... think outside the box. There are huge job opportunities in Emergency Management (all aspects) ... and I am certain that there are other "not obvious creative jobs" out there ...

  4. I agree, Lillith, that fear is a huge part of the equation. So yes, I am trying to forget about the negatives and concentrate on the "what ifs".

    Thanks for your input; to be honest I was not even sure what "emergency management" was, but I did look into it and it sounds like an interesting field to explore.

  5. A few years ago I had your dilemma. Back to school...should I be sensible or follow my heart. I chose to follow my heart and with luck and a short burst of hard work will graduate this year...life is too short now to be sensible.

  6. Well...I would like to agree, and part of me does, but I still need to make enough money to live so....a "little" sensibility is not a bad thing.

    Congratulations on listening (and following) your inner voice....not always an easy thing to do.