Friday, August 20, 2010
The Perils of Single Life
I got stood up today.
I drove a bloody hour to meet someone who never showed.
This has left me feeling really icky inside; I suppose, in part, because my "state" of being is a rather vulnerable one these days, due to the events that have occurred over the last few months in my life.
First of all, I have always considered myself (until now) to be a good judge of character. My judgment has, up until this point, never failed me in any significant way....BUT, all of a sudden THIS has been shattered. You see I really thought this man was a good one; he wasn't, and so.....how do I trust my judgment again?
Secondly, my level of emotion surprised me, while I was standing there waiting for him...after 20 minutes...and realizing he was not likely to show, I started feeling like a complete idiot, perched on the street like that. I also began feeling really really sorry for myself......like what a sad loser am I, sort of thing.
I really hope that this is not an omen of things to come, in my new "single" life.
The last thing I want is to become one of those embittered women that I keep hearing about (from men).......go figure.
I need a hug.