I apologize for messing around with this blog.
I thought that my feelings had changed; that I had moved on to less-deeply-submissive territory.
But....being on vanilla dating sites and then having a discussion with friends on the matter, I realize that I could never be happy in a vanilla relationship. I just can't do it.
This is me. I am here to stay. No matter how hard I fight it. No matter how hard I try to tell myself that I am vanilla with just a little bit of "kink"........it simply does not fly right.
So I am back, and I am submissive.
There is a huge hunger, a huge need, deep inside of me. It is not a need for sex; rather a need to be overpowered, both physically and mentally. I desperately miss that feeling, of being overwhelmed and taken out of my skin, by someone that I love.