I am overcome by sadness today because he is no longer someone I can turn to, in my life; sometimes, like today, I desperately need....everything from him.
I need to talk to him, hear his voice, his words, feel his hands.
I want his guidance and his direction; his stability and sensibility. He knows how to ground me, and I very much need to be grounded right now.
GOD DAMMIT....I NEED HIM!!!!!
And I know what he would say.
I am right here. If you need me that badly, then come to me.
...and he is right ofcourse but...life is always more complicated than that isn't it?