Monday, August 10, 2009

The Shreds of My Life

One of the tasks I embarked upon after deciding to leave my marriage was the cleaning out of the filing cabinet, after which there was a stack of paper 3 ft high that needed to be shredded. I put this stack, along with the shredder, out in the hallway where it would be walked past and seen, a zillion times a day. My reason for putting it out there was simply because there is ample space in the hall and, on my many journeys to and fro, I figured I could stop and shred.

Well, this refuse pile has become ever so symbolic for me. It is now reduced to half its former size and my eye is constantly on that pile; my eagerness to have it shredded and done with becoming more powerful by the day. It just seems that, no matter how much I shred, there is still so much more to do! Why is that pile not decreasing in size more rapidly, for goodness sake??

The thing is you see, I just know that when that pile is gone, a huge weight will be lifted off my shoulders and I will finally feel free to carry on with what will be.


  1. Funny what a pile of stuff can do .. I am sure it will be better when you've shredded it all.
    I love to get rid of things..and always feel better when Goodwill or the trashmen have come for the stuff.
    Good luck!

  2. I shredded 2 big recycle bins full of paper memories when I moved from the house where I lived for 18 years as a wife to my current house. Shredding can be therapeutic.

  3. PURGE....the greatest wash of all.

    There is no better feeling than purging, whether it be shredding or throwing. I have thrown MANY green garbage bags full of my past away over the past few weeks.

    I hope I don't regret it.

  4. I was going to comment on your post but I first read all the comments and your comment made me remember a quote.

    "Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves – regret for the past and fear of the future." -unknown

    From what I have read from all your post. If you stayed and did not finish shredding, there would be regret, yes? You can safely assume that in moving forward in your life there will likely be some form of regret, whether it be great or small. You could regret not having enough time to dance in the rain. So, no matter what we do in our lives regret is always present. People just have to decide how great of an impact on our lives that regret might be. But, no matter the impact we all can survive and move forward. Whether it is an up hill climb or a down hill battle, always keep moving forward.

    (I hope this wasn't all random babble, I didn't stop to get my thoughts straight before typing. I just kept typing what was in my head, only my mind kept turning the pages on me)

  5. It was not random babble at all dear woman, in fact, your words are very wise and I thank you sincerely for them.

    I will think of you whilst dancing in the rain...*smile*.

  6. just keep shredding, sweetie! You have all the memories you'll need. Not enough time to live and have regrets. For me, I'll choose life over regrets. I hope you do too.

  7. I'm almost finished!! *SMILE*