Thursday, October 29, 2009

Shades of Love

I am learning about love. After breaking free of 21 years of isolation and confinement I am beginning to comprehend the myriad flavors and shades of love. I have been living a sheltered existence, only realizing one degree, one flavor of feeling, of being.

My new life is already full of wonderful people and they allow me to learn new things about myself everyday. I am so grateful for these amazing friends, guides and teachers; especially my Rainman, who has been by my side during my very worst storms.

These are hard times; tough lessons. Nothing is easy when emotions are on the line. I now know there will be many people in my life and that I will feel for all these people in different shades of love. But what is important, really important, is that this is OKAY. It is okay to have many people that I love, in my life. It is okay to have different feelings for each and every one of these people.....AND it is okay to love more than one person at once. This last one is a biggie for me. I have never easily "shared" my feelings among people. I have never considered myself capable of loving more than one person at a time.

These are hard times; tough lessons. I am lessons, new ways of being.

It is not easy.
I feel sad quite often.
I feel alone quite often.
I feel ALIVE.

....and THAT, must be good.


  1. Truly, what more can one ask for than to love and to live? It sounds like you are in a wonderful place these days. Take care.

  2. Hi Aurore! I am trying to find that wonderful place...I believe, on a sunny day, I can make out the outline on the horizon. Thanks!

    David, it is so nice to see you. I think of you often...thank you, dear friend.....xoxo

  3. embracing ALL of our feelings is key to a peaceful life. realizing that the feelings are just feelings.

    the key to a truly peaceful life is acceptance of those feelings, and realizing that we do not need to ACT on those feelings. just let them come and go, like waves on the shore.

    feeling them is opening the door to your soul. imnsho, if you stop feeling, you stop living.

    hugs and love,